It's Not Fair

oh he treats me with respect he says he loves me all the time

he calls me fifteen times a day he likes to make sure that I'm fine

you know I've never met a man whose made me feel quite so secure

hes not like all them other boys they're all so dumb and immature

there's just one thing that's getting in the way

when we go up to bed you're just not good it's such a shame

I look into your eyes I want to get to know you

and then you make this noise and its apparent it's all over

If this beginning part of the song has thought us anything is that the guy in the song is..... a jerk and asshole...

but are all guys like this?.....

Boys

They might seem cute but be on guard at all times! Like any human they come pre-made with built-in pillage and hyperactivity, but unlike us girls, boys are ten times more hazardous. some my sayRapists In-Training. Once puberty sets in, fart jokes are replaced with getting laid as the "only thing that matters in life." Boys hate girls until they become teenage boys, at which point, they will doanything, no matter how humiliating, degrading, or generally effeminate, in order to have sex with us.It's actually funny, and kind of sad, to watch, because both the boy and girl know the sex won't happen, but the boy doesn't usually give up hope. However, a few wimpy boys WILL actually give up and find porn to be a useful substitute for a relationship....until their momconfiscates their collection. Moral of the story? Boys are dumb...puberty is dumber.

Paint Me Crazy.

Have you ever felt...

that nothing goes the way you want it too....

i want to tell him im crazy for him... i want him to tell me he loves me just once more thats all im asking for from him, thats to much i guess....

right?

wanting to cry in the middle of the night so no one could see my tears isn't pathetic.... is it?

because the pain and suffering that i was given was to much for me to bare.... what's worse i cant even shed a tear cause i hate feeling vulnerable....

is that sad...

why did she have to leave me here to depend on my own.... for no one to talk to about my problems to leave me with people who cant even be trusted with my secrets..

cant be right?

do i have to jump from friend to friend when i just want to talk about stuff while i can just go to 1 person.... feeling like they are starting to hate.. me

is it true?

now look he's staring what is he thinking... maybe he can see me looking at him.... look away no damn laugh... just laugh everything will seem to be happy but inside its shattered

did i just laugh to loud?

my weight is it really a issue okay looking down.. my thighs look bad... god my butt is it good i think so.. but what about the guys??

oh god another zit please let it go in a few days please please...

could i get my perfect body?

questions going through my head....

every second of the day..... Why don't you just

"Paint Me Crazy"

my own Fairytale

i can't take it anymore the more they complain the more i want to run away far away so no one could find me, i jump in the ocean to be with my thoughts silence and the calm water passes my body i get washed to shore back to reality,

the hurt in my heart can't take it anymore as he arrives back to my life every time I'm sure i was over him, 3 other men in line to be by my side but why do i keep crawling back to him, he who i do not want to speak off gives me one kiss on the hand and i end up back in his arms

1st man shows me speed, how he can go from place to place in a flash but he still lacks in the shadows for he doesn't care for me in that way.

2nd man shows me strength, the way he can carry something with ease and protect me from scary dragons and witches but i have loved him before and he broke my heart does he deserve me again.

3rd man shows me personality, how we stare at each other from a distance and how much were alike it scares me but does he not like me? does he like one of my sisters.

the question still if i will ever be okay with what will become or how i will become

and i will live happily never after

For Miss Ingram

Paranoia

i sent you a text saying i missed you and i loved you heard the phone buzz glad that you replied me,

but nothing was sent but only hate and anger

i replied back confused and upset

asking why you've said does things

everything turned blurry everything just faded

last thing i read was

"i should just not give a shit at all about you now,

who cares what you do with him"

i restrained my self to reply back those words that will end the relationship

the temptation to call you and shout all my feelings for you to prove that i love you and only you. nothing after that.....not a text......not a phone call or a email

i knew you wouldn't say sorry i knew you were just being paranoid.

dedicated to my dear friend hanni <3

xoxo

Dedicated To You.....

The Past Is The Past <3

im scared of the future and i was scared about the past
but something inside me is hoping it will last
being negative is what i do
you've accepted that fact
And you say its cute?

watching how i act
talking about our life
hoping i would open up
it all made you laugh


your memory will still be with me deep in my heart
knowing i will never forget you right from the very start
i wish i knew sooner, i wish you told me first, i wish you didn't have to be a big jerk
nah im just kidding its was all great fun
reminds me of the stpries about how i used to fall down

its was silly to think you were never a right fit
but now i see that you complete me in such mystery

i will miss you monkey butt i love you so much
i hope that you would you remember me your
first Snuggems


xoxo

I got your back

I got your back You got mine, I'll help you out Anytime. To see you hurt To see you cry, Makes me weep And wanna die. And if you agree To never fight, It wouldn't matter Who's wrong or right. If a broken heart Needs a mend, I'll be right there To the end. If your cheeks are wet From drops of tears, Don't you worry, Let go of your fears. Hand in hand Love is sent, We'll be friends Till the end.

Ho Ho Ho